Cracking the Spiritual Ego

As you transition from living your life having never challenged ego, to challenging it such that you begin to sense that you are something more than the ego, the journey becomes both increasingly more difficult and easier. Quite the paradox, huh?

It becomes easier because you’re anchoring in the belief that you’re something more than your ego, which allows you to challenge the exaggerated ego to greater and greater degrees.

However, the difficulty ramps up when you have to challenge the very belief that gave you such a boon in your journey, since a belief still implies that you’re relying on a set of personal identifications to know yourself…it’s still an aspect of ego relating to a separated sense of self.

Everything that you challenge as a part of the exaggerated ego begins to move into an identification with a spiritual ego…the last shell to be cracked. Since the spiritual ego still relies on a separated sense of self to know itself, your conscious awareness hasn’t yet transcended (or gone beyond) ego.

Prior to challenging the spiritual ego, the world still feels comfortable (and sought after). Only now, instead of pursuing the goals of the exaggerated ego, we feel compelled to follow the goals of the spiritual ego.

Fulfillment through doing still feels vital to the spiritual ego…because it is vital to its continued existence.       

There’s still a separate “I” (or localized self) that wants to be known…it’s just wants to be known for making positive, meaningful contributions now. This is a safe place to be, because it hasn’t yet forced you to stand outside of the total pull of the world.

Your actions (and sense of self) still fit within the current constructs of the world…your need to belong is still being satiated through the world’s acceptance (and quite possibly, admiration) of your actions.

A lot of people are coming to this phase, which points to progress with respect to the collective awakening. However, the current challenge is to push beyond this state…to not plateau here.

At this stage, there is still a fair amount of fear (and glamour with the existing world), which is why it’s so difficult to push on…and it’s exactly why we should push on.

It’s scary to consider stepping outside of the orbit of the world. Prior to challenging this within myself, I still felt safe pursuing my goal to be known in the world as someone who shares meaningful spiritual information. Being in the pursuit (and hopefully realization) of this goal still fell safely within the constructs of the world.

However, completely dropping the pursuit of the goal was fear-inducing, since it challenged my being accepted (and understood) by the world. The need for acceptance and the desire to be understood were also a part of being caught in the glamour of the world (glamour and fear go hand-in-hand…it’s just that the glamour tends to hide the inherent fear from our conscious awareness).

Merely considering standing outside the pull of the world causes us to ask:

What will people think of me? Will they respect (or understand) my choices? How will I relate to others or the world for that matter? Can I face being considered a failure because I didn’t live up to the world’s expectations for what was possible for me?

Facing these questions (either internally or through actual experiences) is the ring of fear that we must go through, if we’re to know ourselves beyond ego. The final ring of fear fully challenges the aspect of our sense of self that has been created through our spiritual ego.

When we come through this final ring of fear, the separate sense of self (or the localized “I”) dissolves (the reactive mind dies), allowing us to anchor in a meditative state, where everything begins to be informed by our highest-nature.

Once we’re living from this meditative state, we’ll still be guided to do things in the world, but we’ll no longer be caught in the world. Instead, everything we do will be done as the continuous extension of our deepest nature, where there’s no splitting-off of a separate self that wants to be seen, recognized or understood.

This all becomes possible through your choice (and commitment) to standing outside of the orbit of the world.

Be willing to walk through each ring of fear…for it leads to knowing (and living from) the truth that only Love is real and you are that.

To dedicating ourselves to knowing truth,

Shanna