One of the many desires that I’ve struggled with letting go of is my desire to matter in the world. It drove me to (attempt) to create a business out of sharing spiritual information…something that has the potential to make a difference in the lives of others (i.e., I mattered by doing this.).

It’s also what kept me fearfully clinging to the idea that this business had to come into fruition…or else I wouldn’t matter (or wouldn’t be doing something that mattered).

Anytime I was forced to accept reality—that my “business” was actually a hobby versus a financially functioning business—I would go into full-on resistance. The mere contemplation of letting this pursuit go would send me into a mini-meltdown…full-on victim mentality where I questioned why this was happening to me, instead of asking what this was teaching me.

My reaction ran completely counter to the following prayer/affirmation that I’d been waking up and mentally asking for months:

I affirm and pray to create and maintain for myself a life conducive to the highest path; a life that will allow me to live by my meditative mind, completely free from fear …

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