To Watch or Not To Watch
My New Year’s resolution is one simple, all-encompassing statement: to increase my capacity to be an instrument of love. I feel that, in the past two years, I have been incrementally expanding my capacity to do this as a natural byproduct to my spiritual awakening. Being and extending love has become the central focus in my life. Of course, I’m not perfect at it, but I have set it as my goal. Having love as a goal means that I have a measure with which to view my everyday experiences. I can look at my experiences and ask: Did I respond with love to the given situation or did I react with an emotion outside of love? If responded without love, I can work to course correct, such that love is allowed to flow.
I was feeling at peace with the degree to which I had chosen to dedicate myself to love, until a few weeks ago when I was prompted to question my behavior further. Activities that I had previously felt at peace with engaging in became magnified in my awareness. An inner conflict began to take place as …
KEEP READINGSelf-confidence Is Overrated—What?!?
I was watching an episode from MarieTV the other day (I highly recommend going to www.marieforleo.com and signing up to receive her free weekly MarieTV Q&A video) where the comment “self-confidence is overrated” was made. And Bam, in an instant, much of what I learned in A Course in Miracles (ACIM) fell into place in a way that I could communicate it!
I knew that my mindset had significantly changed in reading ACIM, especially when it comes to how I feel about my ability to accomplish the plans that have been assigned to me, but before hearing that simple comment I didn’t know how to express the confidence I felt in my ability to achieve these plans. I didn’t all of the sudden become self-confident. Instead, I became confident in God’s ability to work through me. It was not about whether or not I could complete the plans He has for me. That became a given. Self-confidence became a non-issue. It was irrelevant. I trusted that there was a specific plan that had been set for me and that I had been sent here to carry out those …
Focusing On The Present Moment
I feel like I’m in a much calmer place than I had been for the past few weeks. I decided to move forward with self-publishing. I feel that it is where God is leading me. Part of the reason I wanted to be “traditionally” published was to have a third-party stamp of approval validating the information to potential readers. But the truth is, lacking approval doesn’t make me doubt what I’ve shared in the book. I know the lessons are solid and that they have the potential to help others, which has always been the goal of the project. Now there’s just more of an onus on me to be the foot soldier for sharing the information. That was a little scary at first, but when I really think about it that’s what I’ve been put here to do—to share what I’m learning and applying in my life with others. It’s not my luxury to simply sit in the solitude of my room and write—I’ve got to get out there (wherever that is) and share it. That’s a part of the plan that I believe has been set for me. …
Faith Is Moving Without Knowing
As soon as I returned from Panama, I focused my energy and attention on doing what I believed to be my next step in increasing the chances of my book being published — growing my “built in audience”. I believed this was a determining factor in who was ultimately chosen for the publishing contract that I did not win, so I set my sights on keeping that from being the case in the future. Even though getting that contract would have been a great story of “living in flow”, I believed I was at the part of my story where I needed to persevere. My gears shifted from allowing my dream to come to me (as a part of living in flow), to going after my dream by taking the bull by the horns. In retrospect, I unknowingly shifted from a state of surrender (spirit) to trying to control the outcome (ego).
Without realizing it, ego had found a new stronghold over me — fear. In feeling that my book’s fate lie in my ability to create a “built in audience”, every “like” or lack thereof on my Facebook page …
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